The Pretty Blerd Guardian!

“You said that the color would leave when winter comes but I like the winter months very much. Because you can spend the winter being excited about what kind of flowers will bloom in the spring.” – Hana no Namae

I HAVE ARISEN!

Yes, I’m still irritated it’s Sunday but it’s okay because I’m at least moisturized and looking cute. Why did I wake up choosing violence? That remains to be seen but perhaps it’s because we’re nearing the end of the year. It’s December already and all I’ve to show for is ashy ankles and social anxiety. BLECH! So let’s clear the musty air while I reflect over these past few months and share what my messy brain has been planning.

Negative energy gives me wrinkles so let’s hurry up and get through the bad stuff first; TWITTER. The Musty Man has overtaken the accursed blue bird and has made it difficult for creators to feel confident because he’s making it easy for others to get verified, also stating that their posts will be favored over regular users. Crusty energy? YES and like under-chin hair, I refuse to leave. Still.. it’s no wonder why people are wanting to spread their wings and migrate elsewhere, whether permanently or not. I’ve considered Tumblr and other websites but I’m perpetually lazy so this might take awhile but it is definitely on my lazy bitch agenda.

DON’T ASK ME ABOUT MY CARRD I’M STILL STRUGGLING-

A few friends, some of who help create fun blogger activities, have also decided to leave and it left me in a slump. In between SEASONAL DEPRESSUN and figuring out what’s happening with Twitter, I’ve become more reclusive than usual. I’m sorry for that. Never again will my thirst for imaginary characters be quenched!

As of right now, I love writing and supporting otome/amare titles far too much for me to quit now! So this blog stays. It still needs some work as far as graphics and cleanliness but that’ll come later, it’s more about what I wish to write and thankfully there’s going to be a method to this madness.

SCHEDULING~

To be honest, can’t stand them. Something about the social anxiety of ‘knowing’ there’s something I have to do in the future stresses me out but over time it’s becoming obvious that it’s because I feel overwhelmed. Being overwhelmed does not water my crops! Instead I’ll slowly break down my hefty tasks into smaller, more manageable ones and came up with this:

During my schedule-heavy weeks (usually D&D oriented), I’ll refrain from writing. The next week is considered more open and will have way more time and energy to write more glamorously.

My Twitch shenanigans will continue the same, where I’ll make the weekly schedule as it comes closer to Monday because my plans can/will change way too often with school coming up in January. A thot’s duty is never done and I’ve many things to do! But I did create my Vtuber design already, I’m just waiting for the commission outline to be done before it gets official. Even though I’ll not be seeking for partnership or doing it full-time, the idea of creating my own little gaming persona is too fun.

I don’t like how Twitter’s conduct and rules are so that’ll never be an aspiration of mine. My intent is still to stream to highlight indie games, show off my fantastic D&D friends, and participate with other BIPOC Vtubers to make our presence known in the community.

CONDUCT~

My follower count has grown over the past few months and I’m thankful that you’d consider my ramblings worthy to follow, including the people who I’ve come to know as good friends now. Whenever there’s a bad day or I’m going through it, I can always depend on you guys for cheering me up – ya’ll know who you are! However, the ‘popularity’ aspect can be a little exhausting. The reason why I find it helpful is that many more people can see the games I’m reviewing and consider supporting the devs who bust their butts to finish it but it’s not without hang-ups.

Over the past month or so there’s been people who have approached me or other ‘popular’ content creators with a kind word but clear agenda, that they were wanting more publicity. I respect the hustle and those who wanna run into a career with this headfirst but understand that not everyone has this mindset! Boundaries; respect them or suffer dry elbows for the rest of your life. From now on I’d like to set a rule that hopefully will be carried to other content creators; please don’t ask for collabs and/or retweets from bigger accounts if you barely know the person. It can come across as disingenuous and if it happens again, you’re grounded and I’m sending you into the dark realm to think about what you’ve done.

AMARE/OTOME REVIEWS~

I still plan to review both but my attention may and will fall more on showcasing indie titles because they’ll need more support, especially as they enter in Kickstarter phase. We’ve been receiving a lot of promising titles lately and in order to keep it that way, we need to be supporting them now more than ever. With Twitter giving priority to those who purchase their badge, other posts may or may not get buried so please consider following and following their progress!

Even though I cheat on my otome games with indie titles, I’ll always return to their loving arms. HOW COULD I ABANDON MY SWEET YANAGI? I must proclaim to the world how much I still want to marry Toma, divorce him and then take all of his money. It’s just whenever I’m actually writing the review, something in my brain shuts off and nothing gets done. Why? I blame Mariah Carey, she’s finally defrosted and wreaking havoc everywhere I go. But I’ve an idea! You will see soon, mind yo business.

EXPERIMENTING~

This isn’t so much of a big deal so much as a heads up in case my random ass decides to change gears for a little bit. Doing the same thing over and over bores me to tears so I’ll always want to try something new, regardless if it sticks or not! Sometimes I may not feel like writing but still want to churn out a Thoughtful Thursday or Teatime Tuesday post so what if I did something more audio based? For some strange reason, some of you enjoy hearing my voice even when I sound like a deranged carebear so maybe I’ll consider doing something more spiffy looking on YouTube.

That also includes throwing in more stuff I like to play beyond romantic games, like D&D or JRPG’s. What do they have in common? ATTRACTIVE PEOPLE! So don’t worry about me recovering from my thirst phase cos that ain’t ever gonna happen. More like.. you’ll see posts or maybe Pinterest boards where I’ll scream about my own OC’s for D&D or roleplay, talking about their romantic lives (and lack thereof) or general aesthetics. Listen I love talking about them okay? It’s the closest I’ll ever get to having children!

Is there something you think I should improve on or consider doing? Let me know below cos I’d be open to suggestions! Or if you’d like to DM me, just hop one over. Just keep in mind my schedule is bananas so sometimes it takes me a minute to answer.

Okay that’s it you can leave now! I started to write this at 4 am, awake only because of coffee and spicy Moroccan music playing in the background. Thanks for taking the time to read this and being friend shaped! It’s been a fun yet chill adventure so far, let’s hope that it’ll continue that way.

STAY DRAMATIC AND FABULOUS,
Bonne.